Haiz... Baby is on duty today at the stadium for NDP. So it is a lonely saturday for me... Gonna paint another small part of my room since i'm kinda free... Or else my dad is going to come after me soon. Haiz... Sch starting in 2 days time, feel like shit man... reali reali dun wan to go back to wk. How to stop this sucky feeling? Just read a fren's blog. she said something abt human being letting themselves to b hindered and burdened by things of the world instead of letting God take control. Is this so? Can i not be affected by what's happening to me and my surroundings and jus let God take over? I guess it takes alot alot of faith to be able to do so. So where's my faith? Where's that passion and fire which i used to haf gone to? Haiz... my bosses share the same faith as me but their actions and speech are disgusting. Actually in the first two yrs teaching at this place, i was putting all these shit behind me and pushing on with faith. But being in such a situation for so long makes me lose heart and faith. But what to do? im bonded by a 2 yrs contract that haven even started. Argh.... there is nothing i can do.... Nothing.... NOTHING.... Suffer in silence.... Suffer.....