I think my current module is the most boring ever in my whole entire time wif KLC. it is a combined unit wif another class and this class of students are mainly the mid age aunties and uncle (only one uncle). they are really quiet and serious in class to the extent that when i crack a joke, they wld turn ard and look at me as if i was an alien from Pluto. Haiz... they always give the "are these ppl clowns or something" look or the "you low class ppl" look. cant take even a slightest joke lor.... there's a chinese saying that says "happy also one day, not happy also another day" so be happy and dun worry lah.... haiz... haiz... poor me and my class, dozing off in class lor. anyway, i gotten a pair of NDP tixs and a pair of preview tixs. all thanks to baby... actually he only got a pair of the actual day tixs and he gave them to me which i in turn gave to mum and dad. i noe mummy reali love to go so i gave them e tixs. then baby was disappointed cos he wanted me to watch the parade which he says is very very nice. so he tried means and ways to get his hands on a preview tix. after trying real hard, he got a pair of preview tixs. actually i told him it is ok even if i din get to go. but he insisted. thru all his tiny little actions, i felt reali loved. I guess the minimum i cld do is to love him doubly hard as well.I Love You, Baby!
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 12:08 AM
Friday, July 28, 2006
Kids Kampong
Went to Kids Kampong yesterday and the children and teachers including me reali enjoyed ourselves. We fed the goose, ducks, chickens and koi fish. It was a very good experience as it is not a everyday thing that u get to hand feed the goose and koi. i loved the koi feeding as the hundreds of koi sucked on my fingertips and splashes water all over me. the goose feeding was fun too, btw e goose reply when u call its name. Hee... den the pets presentation was good as children get to touch and learn abt the diff pets and somemore the mice and gerbils can do tricks. The most fun part of the whole trip was the "LangGao" fishing aka drain fishing. Children get to fish in shallow streams that resembles the drain. It was a very popular Kampong activity. Four kids fell into the drain though. Haha.... but no worries, the streams are barely ankle deep. it is reali child safe so parents and teachers, do bring your children there k? it is at Pasir Ris, actual add is Farmway something something. I'm trying to persuade baby to bring me there again, though it is a little embarassing for a 23yr old teacher to be "LangGao" fishing when it is supposed to be a child's activity. But who cares....
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 12:02 AM
Monday, July 24, 2006
Bored....
jus finish my part for a group assignment... feels bored now. got another assignment due in Aug. Boring... Boring... tml, my sch K2 and pre nursery chdn are going for a excursion. I'm taking a grp of pre nursery to the zoo so i bought some snacks to use it to tame them when needed. haha.... my whole body actually aching now due to over dancing. hee... yesterday i dance for service and uncle bill actually got quite a few praise songs. I din dance for months already so very tring for me lor. shows that i need to exercise more... A piece of good news though, alot of ppl said i lost weight! Haa.... but stil need to exercise more lah, no excuse... please support me!!!
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 9:08 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
I'm a sensitive new age girl
Went for my review and skin prick test on thur. the skin prick test was to test for allergy and to see if any allergy is causing my hoarse voice and throat and sensitive nose. mum was accompanying me to TTSH and we were actually late for the test. At first i dun understand why the allergy test is called a skin prick test. is the test pricky or painful or something lidat? hmmm... i jus went to the room wif doubts. first, the nurse marked both my arms wif lines and the name of the extract, then she put a drop of each extract on each line( there are a total of 17 diff extract). thinking that was all, i was relieved and all i got to do was wait for 20 mins to allow my skin to react. Suddenly, the nurse came back with a bunch of needles."i need to prick your skin to allow the extract to flow into yr skin to react." the nurse told me. i thot, wat the shit, now i noe y it is called a skin prick test. after that i was shifted to another table to wait for the 20mins to pass. i was trying to peep at other patients arms to see how it look like having multiple allergies on the same arm. but it seems like their arms are okie. a few mins later, i starting itching and both my arms was having little swollen bumps and red patches. I was having runny nose and tearing eyes shortly after that. the nurse said behind me that i was starting to react to the extracts. to my amazment, it seems like all the 17 spots are reacting. i quickly asked my mum to see and she said it sld be normal. halfway thru the waiting time, the nurse came over and said something loudly. " Wah lau, my girl, you haf highly sensitive skin leh. all the extracts haf caused allergic reaction wif yr skin. Siao liao, you allergic to plants, flowers and insects. Even the extract that seldom cause allergy, yr skin also reacted. later then i tell you more k?" my jaw dropped to the floor and was thinking to myself, wat the hell are you talking abt? while waiting for the stupid timer to ring, i watched the nurse measuring the swollen bumps on other patient's arms. frankly, most of them din haf much allergic reaction to the extracts. my arm looked the worst. When the 20mins was over, the nurse measure all my swollen bumps. the other patients' report sheet was mainly blank but mine was filled up completely wif the measurement of my swollen bumps. COMPLETELY. I'm have allergic reaction with all the 17 extracts!Haiz.... cant believe it. how can my skin be highly sensitive wifout my own knowledge. but thinking back, i did haf rashes quite easily but i always thot it was heat rash. Like after a run at the sch field or cycling at Ubin can cause rashes on my skin. Argh.... Damn fed up lor.... wanted a gd and clean report for my review but now, the test revealed more problems that my body has. So there is alot of things i need to follow in order to keep my sensitive skin and nose (the allergies are causing problem for both my skin and nose ) out of problems like, avoid contact wif the plants, flowers, insects and watever that can cause my allergies and so on. and the stupid bill actually came up to more than 110 bucks bcos my medications was alreadi more than 80 bucks. Shit shit shit... Damn pissed... i haf to undergo treatment for my gastric reflexes cos it caused my hoarse voice, treatment for my allergies cos it caused my sensitive nose and skin., therapy for my voice cos its hoarse and haf to follow diet plus staying away fr watever that can cause my allergies. went to the doc bcos of one problem and now i haf more than wat i expected. Argh... Argh....
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 12:20 AM
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Good frens are hard to come by
I was jus looking thru some of my old basketball buddies' pics and realised how much i missed them. Actually i also think back and ask myself what and where went wrong wif me, the team and the ppl involved. Many many times, i think of it as my fault. How i handled the situation then was a mistake but i guess the bigger problem was dat my friendship wif the team werent strong at all. Too many things were happening then and i lost myself, my aim and purpose. Therefore alot of things i haf done then were not of my character but if our friendship then were strong, they cld haf seen wat was wrong wif me and help me i guess. I'm not blaming anyone now, our friendship took such a wrong turn was basically bcos of not enough understanding and weak friendship foundation. I reali do miss quite a few buddies. those who stood by me when things happened, when i tried to hurt myself and when i was crying so badly (Thanks, gals). The only regret i haf was not that i cldnt play basketball or for the team but that i lost 2 very close frens. Especially XH. she was my fren since sec one. best best bud. always bully me when we were playing basketball in sec sch. she will take my oversized trackshoes and run off with it together with Jinny. When i had a very bad quarrel wif my mum, she took me in and comforted me. She always tell me not to get bullied by ppl cos i'm easily pushed over. I miss her. Frenship of SEVEN lost jus like dat. what she said on dat day broke my heart, it tore thru my heart literally. Haiz... " i dunno y suddenly u changed into like dat" is what she told me. i thot she understood me better than anyone presented then. I thot so, i reali thot so. but she din. she believed wat the rest haf to say abt me and our SEVEN yrs friendship was gone. Til today, we din keep in contact. she kept in contact wif our common frens but not me. Sad? more than dat... Far more than dat.... XH, i reali miss a buddy like you.
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 12:15 AM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
A love story
My friend emailed me this story and i wld to share wif you who is reading my blog.
' When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms ' On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at thesame time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture,O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy,because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. One day when my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew shew anted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which statedthat she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued,so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, Iwalked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. Inodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. One morning, my wife was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite afew but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a senseof pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said.To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home,she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on thecard. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 10:25 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
Family Day
Oops.... almost forgotten to blog abt my family nites out yesterday. My sis loaned a car yesterday fr 5pm to 10pm and so we all got to go out like good old times. Dad was driving and we went to Tiong Bahru for Bak Kut Teh and den took a long drive to Chua Cho Kang's Ten Miles Sheng Shiong. You see, when we haf a car, we normally will go Sheng Shiong to stock up our daily neccessities. Last time, Dad wld always bring us for a spin ard spore to see place which buses cant bring us to like Jurong Island and the top of Mount Faber or to shopping centres that are far faraway fr where we lived. So yesterday we did the same and enjoyed ourselves very very much. I reali hope to do it again. Anyway, Dad says he reali enjoyed driving. So we sld do it more often. Only thing is that sis got to pay for the car rental though. Keke...
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 12:21 AM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
I'm a Pampered Spoilt Brat!
After church today, baby, me, chris, colin and jere went to cineleisure to play games. the guys played BF and since i got nothing to play, i played with baby's NGage, Sims Busting Out, on the floor. You see, when we go to such Lan shops, i only play the St Sid Meier Pirates and the guys will play BF. But cineleisure dun haf my game so no choice, they play and i sit on the floor and entertain myself. I'm not complaining cos playing Sims is wat i like and i can play for very long too. So both sides objectives met and after an hr, we left the place. we went to Galilee and frens for a afternoon tea break, drinks and some fried snacks. When we were leaving cineleisure, i saw the cartoon "Cars" keychains in a " Put-your-coin-in-and-turn-to-receive-your-toy" machine (hope you guys and gals get what i meant) at the 3rd level. As usual, i must get my hands on them as quickly as lightning. So i and baby got a coin fr Jere but unfortunately, i din get the one i wanted so we needed more coins to try. Then Jere, Chris and Colin said no more coins for me cos it is a waste of time and money and therefore refused to change coins wif me. At this pt in time, i tink some boyfrens will definately stand on their frens' side and persuade their galfrens fr trying anymore. But baby was Very Very Nice. he said he must get for me wat i wan no matter wat. so we went all the way to the basement to use the coin changing machine and our frens decided to walk ard and meet us later on (most prob bcos they cannot tahan me liao. hee...). Happily, we took our 10 one dollar coins and went to try our luck at a similar " Put-your-coin-in-and-turn-to-receive-your-toy" machine at the basement. But shit, the machine at the basement ran out of the keychains. So no choice went all the way to the 3rd level again. Argh... I think some boyfrens will be cursing and swearing by now if this happens on them. Haha... Luckily, on our fifth try, i got wat i wanted. we went to meet the rest and they was like "what the hell" and most probably find me ridiculous. But dear din find me troublesome or anything like dat. Instead he said " I must get what my gal gal want cos i know you reali like the "Cars" keychain". The moral of this freaking long story is that, baby reali dote and pamper me. How many men on this earth will do such a thing? Maybe i haven seen enough men or good men but in my many past relationships, 99% of them wil not do such a thing for me. NEVER! dats wat makes dear very very different fr other men. I love him very much and sorry gals out there, i'm nv letting him go so dun bother to wait for him!
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 11:43 PM
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
Ouch! today i slipped and fell downstairs my place (i did a split) while rushing to church. it was raining earlier on and so the path was reali wet and i guess thats y i fell. Got abrasions on my rite knee and leg lor. Haiz... den nvm, i forgotten to bring tissue and so i haf to clean my wounds wif my wet tissues. The pain was really bad. to make things worse, it started to rain again. so i haf to hold my umbrella, clean my wound and maintain my balance on the wet and slippery pathway. Guess i'm a little stupid to clean my wound under the rain at the stupid path but i guess the fall made me temporary stupid. Finally i managed to stop the bleeding and made my way to church. When i reach church and saw baby, i started to tear. Dunno why i even cried. i wasnt even crying when i fell. but the moment i saw him, i cried. Maybe some will say i trying to act lor but for me i guess it is just that we only show our weak side to the ones we love. It is true isnt it? we act strong in front of those we dun noe well so as to protect ourselves and not to reveal wats in the deepest corner of our hearts. Whereas, we only show how weak and needly we are to those we reali love and care abt. But dun forget, there is always God ard. Depend on God is better than to depend on man and of course there are times when God do send frens and angels to help and guide us along. So frens, we are nv alone and dun be afraid to show what u reali feel to those you love.
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 11:26 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Wat a week...
Been reali busy tis week cos baby had alot of off days. He was back in camp for only 1 day tis week and so we went out everyday after wk. Jus went 4 my second therapy today and doc say things aint that gd cos i din improve fr the last time she heard me. Wonder how she remember how i sounded like when she meet so many patients a day? but anyway, she was toying with the idea of sending me for another scope test but this time round by my throat not my nose. the previous scope experience wasnt that gd. if you can remember, i sneezed rite into the doc so this time, im afraid that i'll puke into the doc. Ha... trying to be more positive abt things man. Cos i'm reali not happy hearing wat the doc say. Who wants to be seeing a doc for long term? Haiz.... What to do? No choice leh... See how my review goes on the 20th lor. hope it's good news.... Tok abt more cheerful things lah.... it's been a while seen i and dear spend more time together so tis few days of off are reali good. though i got to work, we stil managed to go for movies and cycling and makan for the past few days... we were talking alot abt our fond past memories at various places and we haf lots of good laughs. I reali wish to keep a diary or photo album or something like that to record all our memories so when we grow old, we can still remember what we did when we were young and dating. Maybe can share wif our kids and grandchildren ya. Haa.... Reali wish dat he's the one i can spend the rest of my life wif. He's the One...
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 1:02 AM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Special Diet
Haiz... According to the doctor, i,m suffering gastric reflux and therefore, i got to avoid quite alot of food. My special diet is as follow: Avoid food that are spicy, oily, deepfried full cream dairy - milk, chocolate, cheese, yogurt citrus fruits and juices - orange, pineapple, lemon lime, grapefruit, tomato caffeine - coffee, tea, chocolate, chinese tea, coke alcohol nuts mint sweets and candies So wat do you think? pathetic rite? most of the food to avoid are my favs like, chocolate, cheese, yoghurt, milk, coffee, tea, coke. Argh... i'hv been trying to follow closely though. i still take some of the food but in reali little amt and only once in a while. dear is trying to help me too so things arent that bad. hope i can keep it up for the sake of my voice. So frens keep me in prayer and support me!
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 10:21 PM
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Haiz...
Baby had a off today, booked out real early in the morning and had to book in before 9.30pm again. Haiz... so i got not much time with him today cos i got to work till almost 4pm. But he was reali sweet cos he came to pick me up and send me to wk. felt reali good to be pampered early in the morning... haha... met him after wk to pick up his memory card fr the hp dealer at orchard, then dinner at Scott. Bcos of my strict diet, i got lots of things i cant eat (i'll update more next entry). So baby decided to support me by following my diet too. So sweet and touched... So after dinner, we jus walked ard orchard and at 7.15pm we haf to make our way to CCK. then i started to get a little angry cos he was playing wif his hp since he picked up his memory card fr the dealer. Tried to make him stop and give me some attention but it din reali wk. So on the MRT, i was complaining abt him getting engaged wif his Ngage. Why cant he play wif it in camp later on when he has time to spare? We got limited time today but his eyes is set on the Ngage... But when we were reaching CCK, he got upset wif me over my complains. it seem like he got things hiding fr me. i know things had been tough in camp the past few days but he din wanna talk abt it. saying it was not convenient to talk abt it. i also dunno wat happened but if he dun tell me den i'll nv understand or noe. Haiz... i also dunno lah. guess has to squeeze it out of him this weekend. cant bear to see him taking on the burden on his own...
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 11:32 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
F**k
Damn f**cked up now.... crying this very min while i write this blog. why does the good always get bullied? barely few mins ago, i had a quarrel with a uncle which i haf no relationship wif. My mum is adopted (not in the eyes of law) and her adoptive mother has a lawful adopted daughter. our family and their family haf and will not keep in contact and the only person that bind us together is my adoptive grandmother. She is a frail old lady with cancer and she stayed with the lawful daughter. how well can she be with cancer and staying with a family who barely cares? Everytime she is not feeling well, she calls us and tell us. then i'll take leave or someone in the family will take leave to bring her to the doc. Why come to us when she has her lawful daughter to take care of her? the reason being that they dun care much. they only need my granny to take care of the maid and the 3 primary sch sons. when she was undergoing chemo, guess what she eat? milk and cereal. bcos she has no appetite and the maid dunno what to cook. Any brainless person know that at least cook some porridge or nutritious soup lah. HELLO! she is undergoing chemo. to make things worse, she has to worry abt the 3 grandsons and maid. Argh.... just las yr she got high fever (during the chemo period) and no one in the house knew. according to the doc, high fever can cause her life and so guess what, she called and ask me to go over. so i went and i got a shock of my life. the sons were fighting with bamboo sticks and my granny was trying to shout for them to stop while resting in bed. her temp then was more then 38.5 degress. she nearly lost her life then. everyday i visited her and stay by her bed. i prayed and prayed that anything will happen to her. At one pt the doc actually ask us to decide whether to save her if she go into a critical condition. Sh is just too weak and the best thing is to let her die quietly. But Praise the Lord, she pulled thru. Then she requested to come back to my place and stay as chemo is reali hard for her. But the f**king daughter refused to grant her wish and say she can be better taken care at her place with the useless maid and 3 noisy sons. So my granny refused to continue wif chemo. And that was last yr. Now, things dun look gd. i dun even dare to think abt it. I dun wan to think abt it. i'm afraid to think of it. i'm scared. reali scared... Lord pls help me, help us, help her... pls give us help and strength. Amen.
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 10:39 PM
Blah... Blah...
Today went for my 1st therapy... a little excited cos dunno wat to look for during the therapy. The room is reali small and it is sound proofed. So it was a little warm in there but it was still alrite. i was taught two exercises. the brr... and humm... exercises reali funny lor but hope that it helps. Anyway, jus had a quarrel with someone at home. she was shouting names at me when i was talking to dear on the phone. Got pissed and scolded her back. she always nv think b4 she say anything. we know her so can tahan but wat abt the ppl outside. especially her future in law. she really has to tame her mouth and temper. it is for her good...
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 10:04 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
How could I live?
Sometimes i really wonder how cld i live without baby... "How cld i live without u? I want to know. How cld i breathe without u? If u ever go. How cld i ever ever survive?" Haa... Luckily you guys cant hear me sing. my voice is horrible... Dear really mean alot to me. He being in the army and i being in a shitty job is really hard for us. But i guess he made things better and i made things better for him too. He wld do alot of sweet things to really make my day so that i can move on. He wil call me early in the morning to jus say a word of encouragement or a short prayer when he actually can be caught and booked for doing so. When we meet on weekends, he make sure that he spends most of his time with me. we are together for more than 3yrs but he still gives me the tingling feeling when he hold my hand or kiss me. it feels like we are still in the honeymoon period. hee... we are still very much in love. though nothing on this earth is forever, i cherish what we haf right now and we both want it to be forever and that's more than enough for me. So after this yr, both of us gonna wk hard on saving for marriage. 2007 will be a time of saving and scrimping and staying home. I can't wait!!!
Posted by SunKissDewDrop at 9:25 PM
I'm back
it's been a long time since i blog... Long week it has been. Busy with a grp project and den first week of sch is hectic man.... during the week, 2 of my students got high fever and one of them even got fits in sch. I was danm stunned cos i as the only one in the rm when it happened. Luckily we teachers are first aid trianed so i was able to handle the situation pretty well if not for some old fashioned chinese teachers who was trying to administer the old wife myths first aid on the poor child. Hee... i was quite calm thru the whole thing and even the paramedics who came in the ambulance said i did very well. But dunno why after everything (my student was ok after the fits) when i see the ambulance off, i started trembling and i broke down. i hid at the back garden and cried my heart out. Guess it was the after effects... but thank God the kid was ok. It is actually very common for young chdn to haf fits when they haf high fever. Just remember not to put anything into their mouths, lay them on the floor with nothing ard them that may cause injury during the fits. The fits may last for a few minutes and when its over, put them in recovery position and wait for help. After fits, they will be very drowsy so try to keep them awake if possible. I sound like i am giving lessons here. Haa....