Damn f**cked up now.... crying this very min while i write this blog. why does the good always get bullied? barely few mins ago, i had a quarrel with a uncle which i haf no relationship wif. My mum is adopted (not in the eyes of law) and her adoptive mother has a lawful adopted daughter. our family and their family haf and will not keep in contact and the only person that bind us together is my adoptive grandmother. She is a frail old lady with cancer and she stayed with the lawful daughter. how well can she be with cancer and staying with a family who barely cares? Everytime she is not feeling well, she calls us and tell us. then i'll take leave or someone in the family will take leave to bring her to the doc. Why come to us when she has her lawful daughter to take care of her? the reason being that they dun care much. they only need my granny to take care of the maid and the 3 primary sch sons. when she was undergoing chemo, guess what she eat? milk and cereal. bcos she has no appetite and the maid dunno what to cook. Any brainless person know that at least cook some porridge or nutritious soup lah. HELLO! she is undergoing chemo. to make things worse, she has to worry abt the 3 grandsons and maid. Argh.... just las yr she got high fever (during the chemo period) and no one in the house knew. according to the doc, high fever can cause her life and so guess what, she called and ask me to go over. so i went and i got a shock of my life. the sons were fighting with bamboo sticks and my granny was trying to shout for them to stop while resting in bed. her temp then was more then 38.5 degress. she nearly lost her life then. everyday i visited her and stay by her bed. i prayed and prayed that anything will happen to her. At one pt the doc actually ask us to decide whether to save her if she go into a critical condition. Sh is just too weak and the best thing is to let her die quietly. But Praise the Lord, she pulled thru. Then she requested to come back to my place and stay as chemo is reali hard for her. But the f**king daughter refused to grant her wish and say she can be better taken care at her place with the useless maid and 3 noisy sons. So my granny refused to continue wif chemo. And that was last yr. Now, things dun look gd. i dun even dare to think abt it. I dun wan to think abt it. i'm afraid to think of it. i'm scared. reali scared... Lord pls help me, help us, help her... pls give us help and strength. Amen.