I was jus looking thru some of my old basketball buddies' pics and realised how much i missed them. Actually i also think back and ask myself what and where went wrong wif me, the team and the ppl involved. Many many times, i think of it as my fault. How i handled the situation then was a mistake but i guess the bigger problem was dat my friendship wif the team werent strong at all. Too many things were happening then and i lost myself, my aim and purpose. Therefore alot of things i haf done then were not of my character but if our friendship then were strong, they cld haf seen wat was wrong wif me and help me i guess. I'm not blaming anyone now, our friendship took such a wrong turn was basically bcos of not enough understanding and weak friendship foundation. I reali do miss quite a few buddies. those who stood by me when things happened, when i tried to hurt myself and when i was crying so badly (Thanks, gals). The only regret i haf was not that i cldnt play basketball or for the team but that i lost 2 very close frens. Especially XH. she was my fren since sec one. best best bud. always bully me when we were playing basketball in sec sch. she will take my oversized trackshoes and run off with it together with Jinny. When i had a very bad quarrel wif my mum, she took me in and comforted me. She always tell me not to get bullied by ppl cos i'm easily pushed over. I miss her. Frenship of SEVEN lost jus like dat. what she said on dat day broke my heart, it tore thru my heart literally. Haiz... " i dunno y suddenly u changed into like dat" is what she told me. i thot she understood me better than anyone presented then. I thot so, i reali thot so. but she din. she believed wat the rest haf to say abt me and our SEVEN yrs friendship was gone. Til today, we din keep in contact. she kept in contact wif our common frens but not me. Sad? more than dat... Far more than dat.... XH, i reali miss a buddy like you.