Tried to slp but cant so i got up to use the pc. Too many things on my mind. Everything seems to be stuck in my brain. Bad habit fr young i guess... I worry abt things before i slp. I think abt things before i slp. I even recollect on my memories before i slp. Keke... Maybe bcos of the peace of nite therefore i think alot before i slp. For the past few weeks, i cant slp well. Been tossing and turning alot b4 i can fall asleep and when i do fall asleep, i dream of weird dreams. By the time i wake up, it seems like i haf nv fall asleep. My physical body has rested but not my mind/brain. Haiz... Lately, i started to realise i'm losing my old self. No more "raraness", craziness or positiveness. All these seemed to haf left me. I used to dream abt my future but now they seem far and distant. It feels like the future (marriage, kids, house), which i haf dreamt and wanted so much, is not gonna come. I'm tired... drop dead tired... swallowed by the world. The world which i hate so much.... so much....