Hmm.... how haf i been? i also dunno.... Fr the past few blogs, life did seemed like it was getting better. not reali actually... one of my grandaunt passed away on 18th of Jan. I visited her at TTSH (the place i dread most) on the 13th and spent quite some time wif her. She seemed ok den. On 18th, i was feeling weird the whole day. Kept having encounters wif black butterflies on dat day. It was sort of a sign to me so i went back home and rang my mum immediately. True enough, grandaunt was in a critical condition. Went to TTSH (argh) to see her for the last time. She passed away at 2200 peacefully. Dunno y it kinda hit me hard. i told dear maybe i dunno how to handle "eternal seperation" well. but who can? Saw my granny weep so badly dat my heart ache. knowing wat she is going makes me feel even worse. too much to handle.... too much....